if no one has free time.. it is best to skip this post and not read it... it may not mean anything.. for there is a high chance you would not understand it.. well. nobody does understand how people think..

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I believe everythin is falling apart... now on a different wave lenght.. all that is left are memories of the past... not wanting to be forgotten but not wanted to be remembered... how is life different compared to before you ask? well.... pretty much the same except the constant clashes now and then.. probably if could be something serious.. probably not.... well.. from how i see through the glass.. it doesn't look that normal for that much clashes to happen... how i see through the glass window is when chances of clashes happen only one in a blue moon....  if life supposed to turn out this way? maybe it is destiny..... maybe destiny cannot be avoided no matter how much you try.. for all we know.. we could be just riding on a train waiting for the road to stop.. and when it does.. who knows what will happen of us..... life seems so uncertain right now..  is this normal? could this be stress..?? or depression..?? or somethin else..?? changes in how i am reacting to the signals are now bad.. how i change is somethin i myself and not sure of.. uncertainty.... could that be the way life is supposed to be..? has anything in life a meaning? could these frequent clashes mean somethin..?? probably showing to me in a hard way that the road has to be halted.. or i should follow a different road..? hmm.. come to think of it.. i feel like i am goin out of control.... is this how i am supposed to feel right now? is anyone else feeling the same way..? probably doubt.. who can have the exact same experience as another person....!! even twins are different in character or personality no matter how identical they look....

is all hope loss??
is all chances of feeling what i felt in the past lost?
am i lost?

Probably am..  come to think about it.. i wonder.. what is a blog for..?? some use it to show what they did all day.. some for explaining things and issues.. some for releasing all their emotions and feelings.. or probably their thought... hmm.. which one am i categorized in..? i feel like i prefer the last category.. who else am i supposed to express.. no one listens... as a guy.. i know one thing that is for sure.. no guys want to listen... all they do is give opinions to other people.. and who listens to these opinions? opinions are just some stupid solutions given to people who are just as stupid to follow.. how can anyone give solutions to a problem they are not facing themselves..? all this opinions are just like a blind man showing the way around a new city to another...!!! damn.. i really doubt anyone who has a problem really wants an opinion..!! all they want are someone who can sit down on the same table and listen to another person's problem.. WITHOUT giving any solutions.... if he/she wants a solution they will freaking ask..!! why the hell are you telling me somethin i have no interest in..?? you think i care how smart or big you are giving all these solutions which would help other people and might not help me..?? i don't seem to give a damn on what you think.. just listening to me is enough...!!!

Well.. i guess no one will take a chance and listen.. so.. guess i will be blogging what i think from now on.... just talking to someone seems to cause more trouble than i am already facing... why take the stupid chance..?? it would definately be a waste of time and effort.. both for you and me... HECK with it... i do not want anythin to do with us clashing because of not being able to give my opinion when asked...

Come on..!! when you ask me for an opinion.. i give.... but only when you ASK..!!! dun go giving opinions to people when they dun ask..!! think they give a sh!t..?? THINK NOT..!!

is it time to move on..?? should i just find another wave to surf..?? or should i just wait a while and see where this path leads me to...?? damn.. all the uncertainty... why do people have to suffer all these stuff.... is suffering stuff like this necessary?

ambiguity(hope i spelled it right)... all.. i know is what i know now.. whatever i have do not know.. i will have to find out myself.. even if i will have to do it alone.. no one cares anymore.. and come to think of it.. best they don't.. or they will just be nothin but an obstacle..

Life is never what it seems.. and right now.. all the uncertainties in life could just be patches in the world map.. just waiting to be encountered...for it to be good or bad.. Heck with it.. life is goin to keep goin on.. i hope..!! well.. just to tell myself.. and anyone who wants to read...

"Don't give in to anything..!!"

for all i know.... problems can be solved.... probably not now.. maybe in the future.. or maybe when the 'candle goes off'.... just go to sleep.. and wake up fresh for a new day.. do not let one sh!tty thing ruin your entire life... Damn..!! am i sleepy now..~!!!

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For those who did read all these... sorry for complaining so much.. seems like there is nowhere else to turn to.. so i have to release it here.. sorry if it does affect your state of mind...

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haha... DerDrik(at least i think thats how to spell that name) the disgrunted elf..!!!! from Hitz.fm morning crew... well it is about an elf trying to become a Chinese Zodiac for CNY.. somethin like dat..!! recommended to listen when u on the way to college.. haha..!!

well anyways...!!! GONG HEI FA CHOY..!! haha... CNY passed liao.. but i wrote this between the 15 days of CNY so it is counted as i wished you during CNY... hmmm.. wondering if ppl i know been eating lots..!! haha..  dieting during CNY is unforgivable.. haha..!! well its just wrong.. cause... ermm.. cause... well.. very putus stim lor.. when everyone is enjoyin eat.. and ppl diet.. haha.. wanna diet.. only after CNY keke..!!

Hmmm.. ang paus banyak banyak i hope.. well so do u..!! been visiting houses for 3 days straight.. i think.. maybe it was 2.. welll anyways.. tired..!!!! spent about 1 hour each house... so long.. come to think of it.. i did not actually know what i was doin which can spend 1 hour per house..

well.. my uni just started this week.. and so far..the class timetable seems to be good... unfortunately... the teachings started on the first class itself.. man.. that was fast.. i entered the room like damn blur only...>,<""" well.. of course... it was only later we were informed to get the lecture notes online and in the student drive... which would mean we have to print so many pages of notes...!!! hiahz...

well.. to make things worse...the books are expensive..!!!! they like trying to cut my neck only.. one book is about 100 bucks++....so 4 subjects will lead to about 400++ bucks..!! pokai man.. must think which one to buy and which one not to... quite scary lor.. if u photostat the book the uni might have to kick you out of the program..i wonder if i seperate the questions and the notes when i photostat a text book.. is it still considered wrong?? well.. i took one book and changed it into 2.. wouldn't it be different...???

Hmmm.. I wonder........ -_-""

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hehe..  i hate saying this always but sooo sorrryyy... din update lately... been lazy.. and did not know what to blog about... but now i feel like the i want to blog time....

Well.. i have an idea.. wouldn't it be cool if there is a country where you can connect your laptop wherever you are no matter if you are driving on a highway or you are in the toilet or when you are in the middle of a jungle? lets say where ever you are in a country you can connect into the internet via wireless.... ain't it gonna be cool? well.. if a country does do that.. wow.. imagine the type of news the newspapers are gonna write... well.. this would be a history remembered as the first and maybe the only country with a worldwide internet connection....

Well.. its just an idea.. i feel like spreading... instead of using the government funds doin some shitty stuff.... creating this history would certainly be remembered... i think the whole world would know which country this is.. it would certainly BOOM businesses around the country... i say why waste time in tryin to make things cheaper.. it is already cheap the way it is.. no matter how much you say it.. just keep the extra funds the corrupted people are stealing from the government funds and try this idea.. i am sure this could work.. Nationwide internet connection.. wow.. no matter where you are... waiting in the traffic jams.. goin online at the same time.. now this IS mutli-tasking....!!! haha....

Anyways.. this is just an idea.. wonder if any country does try this thing out..

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Everyday we encounter events that throws us further into sadness.. and everyday we try to solve these problems ourselves.. most will wake up the next day and almost forget what their problems were... are these problems and sadness really forgotten...? don't you wich that someone would just give you a hug... it could be someone you know.. or a stranger who happens to see you looking gloomy...

Well i have came upon a video clip passed to me from cf...  which i previously posted up.. and i will post again..

Here: Free Hugs Campaign Video

take a look at this.. i am sure it will touch your heart no matter who you are.. surprisingly this campaign has taken the world by storm.. from the video.. more and more people are interested in this resulting in world wide free hugs campaign... well thats what i read in the free hugs campaign website... well.. i wouldn't be surprise that soo many people want to take part in this... i know i would..

Who doesn't need a hug nowaways...

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Yalo.. i got a strong feeling tomorrow mornin goin to rain..!!! today was rain's concert... so the clouds need to travel from korea to here... so it should be rainin tomorrow... haha..!!

Well.. today my youth just organized a BBQ get together... and i am soo sooo tired right now..!!! so i am gonna make this short...

anyways.. just check this video clip out.. its quite cool lar.. if anyone can really do it here... damn government lar... i heard that there are rules saying that this thing cannot be done here... damn...

Free Hugs Campaign

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